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Messages from Keiko Koma
28th Jul. 2020


On My Mother’s Death Anniversary

I had lived most fearful for this day to come. When I was little, I used to say that I would die if my parents died. My body felt torn by the passing of my mother, with whom my life was unified. No matter how much I cried, tears kept welling up, and I spent nights deeply understanding the phrase “wet the pillow.” When I read a poem about my mother at the “Legends of Koguryo Rediscovered” concert, I wailed, unable to stop my tears. I spent days thinking about the meaning of humans being born, life’s function from birth to death, the meaning of death, etc. Although my mother did not exist in the visible world, when I focused on my internality, wondering if she really wasn’t there, I certainly felt that her soul was present. And at times when I suffered, she appeared in my dream as the wind and an aroma. I came to know that her soul was with me. I also understood that human existence does not end with death and that souls are eternal. From the deaths of my mother and father, I started a new life centered around my internality. From such a way of living, I could see and envision the future and naturally know what to do. Also, I could communicate with the souls of the kings I wished to meet—King Dongmyeong, the founder of my ancestral kingdom of Koguryo, King Gwanggaeto the Great, and King Jakko. Talking with the souls of kings who created and expanded a nation taught me the will of heaven. It was a series of experiences from which I sensed guidance beyond human intellect. As I felt that talking with a living person didn’t bring such richness, my communication with souls allowed me to find a path to live with deep meaning. It became food for life. The souls guided me to recognize the existence of Master Idaki Shin. Living life keeps getting deeper and richer. On July 28th, my mother’s death anniversary, we held a piano concert by Master Idaki Shin at our guesthouse. I have always lived with anger and sorrow at the unreasonable system of this world that seemed to be controlled by the devil. I spent years knowing that we cannot overcome or solve it with what already exists. Today I saw a true path that we can live on to win. Not only did I see it, but I also experienced it with my life. I declare that today I stop living in a way that hurts myself by taking on the distortions, stains, and burdens of this world. I experienced with my life the way to live filled with love and connected to Great Being with gentleness. I could never forget the anniversary of my mother’s death. I will surely build on today’s experience without ever forgetting it. Thank you very much.