KEIKO KOMA net

26 Apr. 2010

Rapeseed blossoms

Today I went to Roppongi embracing an image of rapeseed blossoms in my heart. For some reason this spring, this flower came into my mind. In the spring of 2002 all of a sudden I started to talk about poems I had created in my teens and within a short period of time I published them, entitled Reika, with special DVD video. I went to film a landscape I had in my memory to make the DVD. It was in the Bosou area as I used to bring with me, in my teens, my photo with friends at a rapeseed field in full bloom, as we made it a rule to go to appreciate it every spring. Also in spring we enjoyed holding a gathering of poems and in turns we narrated poems created on the spot. rapeseed frequently became the subject of our poems. This time in reality we could not reach Bosou and went to Kamakura through Yokohama where I used to visit frequently and had a lot of memories in spring. Wherever I went I always thought over the meaning of my life and how I could contribute to realizing a global peace. These days every instance of my memory at that time was revived in my mind. I recalled also a message by Mr. Idaki Shin that everything that happened in one’s life was indispensable and precious. I realized this in my life after having encountered him: all the pains and grievances in the past were nourishment for what I was doing now. Several years ago I realized also that I started to suffer from pollen allergy since I had neglected my deepest wishes when I was ten years old. I revised my life and tried to recover my deepest wishes and year after year the allergy faded away and this year I did not suffer at all. I felt as if it were a kind of miracle. Anyway it was time to manifest our true nature in this world. My heart trembled as my life seemed to be completely renewed. The light-vision of spring in my teens has revived this year and everything was very exciting.

I stayed together with my friends at a seashore with rapeseed blossoms.
I dreamed about my unknown future.
Spring breezes were gentle and brought me a sweet aroma of hope,
Telling me that my future would be glorious,
though the actual situation now was difficult.
I swore that I would live on as I was greatly encouraged by internal energy that eased my pains.
Breezes from the sea touched my cheek.
I would live together with this breeze.
My future was glorious and full of hope.

The wonderful future that I had embraced as my dream
was realized here and now.
Spring breezes carried a sweet aroma of spring.
I was living a more beautiful life now than what I had envisioned.
Rapeseed blossoms were shining brilliantly and
shared the joy of my wonderful life.
I was surrounded by a happy fragrance.
Rapeseed blossoms were waving to gentle winds.
This was a light vision of a dream of happiness that I had prayed to be realized
In my childhood.
I wished that everybody would live a vigorous life.
Now, in the future and in eternity.