KEIKO KOMA net

1 Nov. 2011

Soul

Since childhood I have been living on embracing in my heart a special being that I had described as another person who was living together with my life. Later in my life soon after when I had encountered Mr. Idaki Shin, he clarified that that person should be king Jakou. On hearing this I burst into tears without stopping from the depth of my life.
I would never forget this. I realized that I would continue living together with my ancestor within my heart and create a truly human society that would never repeat the sadness of my ancestors. This was the only way to nurse his deep grievances and put an end to a long history of sadness. Since then thirty years have passed and while since childhood I had been told that my eyes looked extremely sad, Mr Idaki Shin clarified also that this was not because of my personal life but the pattern of a sad life that had been repeated by my ancestors for many generations. I realized that I could overcome this by starting to live an authentic life true to voices of my internality. In May in the year 1998, I visited Mt. Gojo, the birth place of Koguryo for the first time and I experienced a great impact and realized a great sadness that I felt as if my body was hit by thunder and were torn apart and I kept on crying with tears all the way to Beijing for as many as eighteen hours in a night train and back to Japan. From this experience I realized that to live a new life would change to love the great grievances of my ancestors beyond any expression in words. I also acknowledged a deeper meaning of my life. While in our modern society many people questioned the nature of my life as a direct descendent of Koguryo’s royal family, seen from my experience, many people looked miserable as they were not aware of the world of souls. Historic lands of Koguryo looked familiar to me as I had envisioned them since childhood. I knew them within my internality. When I eventually visited a place where king Jakou had build his first castle in a plane landing before building a major one on the top of Mt. Gojo, without being told by anybody, every time as we passed by, I recognized that I had surely arrived at the birthplace of Koguryo and said that we should have arrived at Mt. Gojo. At first I thought I was in the wrong as we were in the midst of nowhere but I came to know about the fact that king Yomei had built a city there in the first place, I realized that indeed my life knew everything and I greatly appreciated with much respect the precious message from the world of souls. When I visited the surrounding mountain of Wandu castle city that had never been researched nor excavated for over one thousand and nine hundreds years, a similar incident happened. I felt like not climbing up the steep mountain as there was no road to get there and it looked too much for a woman like me, however Mr. Idaki Shin strongly encouraged me to get there all together. So as I reluctantly started to climb at first, then I realized that I knew the way very well and inner voices of souls showed me where to put my every step forward. So in the end with ease I arrived at the summit faster than everybody else, sat comfortably on a stone and waited for other fellows to catch me up. This experience assured me of the presence of a great world of souls. Modern people who were ignorant of this world looked really sorry and I was sure that humankind was facing a crisis as they have lost the sensitivity for the world of souls. Yesterday I traveled from Kyoto to Fukui as we were holding the Legends of Koguryo Rediscovered concerts in both cities and one in Kyoto was finished last night, I passed by Suruga Bay and my internality was greatly moved so as to shed tears from the bottom of my heart. This was a sign that I was in a historic place related to Koguryo. Also yesterday I heard that in ancient times Suruga used to be an international gate to Japan from the main continent. As I watched the sea a soul started to talk to me. So I wrote it down true to what it said so it was obvious whether or not what I heard from the soul was true. In reality at my concert many spectators shed tears as I narrated the poem of truth together with the world of souls. I also burst into tears. Like this often times, eventually I came to acknowledge the true history of Japan. Marvelously Mr. Idaki Shin always improvised a music that expressed the state of my internality and the world of souls. This communion at heart and the state of unity at heart and soul provided me great joy and an impression of being alive. This was an experience of awakening of our soul. I envisioned that our world would become a peaceful one all at once if many people all over the world would experience this. When hidden truth would revive and become manifested before our eyes, a new era of the truth would become wide open. All at once, with great impact I acknowledged the precious mission of our concert and realized that our activities were indispensable for a glorious future of Japan. I would keep on expressing our activities as I knew very well that expression in words would diffuse our influences all over. Overseas in many countries while I came to organize the Legends of Koguryo Rediscovered concert, foreign spectators often told me that they were greatly impressed with my clear brilliant eyes and bore great hope. As outside Japan people did not understand the Japanese language, I realized that my eyes were telling something at a glance and delivering a message that sadness could be changed into love. I was glad to see that my eyes were expressing my internality.