KEIKO KOMA net

21 Mar  2009

Departure

At the core of each person’s self
There is a tree of life that glows to the universe
Connected with the world three stages before the Big Bang,
Each can create a new world
I am grateful to the 
birth of love and new life.

Joy of life, live an honest life

After last night’s lecture on death given by Mr. Idaki Shin, my heart started aching as I recalled many sad things in my life. He said that human life so far has been miserable and tears came up endlessly in my eyes. However, in the morning I could wake up to find myself fine. The pains in my heart were over. Something big in human life must have changed and I acknowledged the meaning of living in the era of life, where principles of life had the priority over anything else. I used to suffer from an innate tendency of my consciousness taking after my father to suppose a short life and do everything very fast in order not to lose an opportunity. These days my blood pressures became a barometer since Mr. Idaki Shin gave us series of lectures for eliminating rigid frameworks in our brain. It immediately went up as soon as I tried to do something exceptionally fast out of my consciousness that supposed the arrival of death at any time. In such a case I was looking at some future and blind to what was actually happening at present. I could not control it consciously as it has been always true to the state of my life. I had to wait some time before last night’s lecture took place. He taught us how we have been controlled by outer forces to become ill and fight each other only to enrich war and chemical industries. Human dignities have been alienated. I realized again the marvelous nature of the Idaki counseling courses that tackled this issue, gave solutions to negative influences coming from past history, regaining the true light of human life within people‘s internality and transforming the entire world. I imagined how he has been completely dedicating his life to tackle all human problems. The dimension of his life was extremely precious and above everything. Owing to his endless exercise to dissolve anything negative to human life, I could live on, and we were welcoming a new era of humankind where our deepest wishes would be realized. During the lecture, I felt my heart start to beat faster and a light of life seemed to become bigger and bigger in the shape of a sphere as was mentioned in his story. After returning home I was at a loss, unable to manage this big change. I measured my blood pressure, however, it was stable. Then I acknowledged that the big change was made within my brain and not to my body.  I recalled Mr. Idaki Shin’s message to love a life honest to oneself. I used to refrain from doing something under the excuse of my staff’s inability. What I should do was simply to use my brain to realize what I wished to do under whatever circumstances without taking time to think about negative reasons for not doing it. Then I envisioned a full light of hope.  .