KEIKO KOMA net

15 Feb. 2010

Purple sky

As I was on the way to a lecture hall in Tokyo, the sky was dyed purple while clouds looked like silhouettes of ancient historic monuments of Koguro. To my surprise I felt for a while as if I were in China. My heart was greatly animated. A purple sky was particular in spring, so I rejoiced at it though we were still in February. My lecture event in Yokohama was always full of intimate atmosphere, and I felt quite at home. These days I have been thinking over the true meaning of keeping faith and at today’s lecture, I came to have some ideas. Without consciousness, I rejoiced at everything related to my ancestor’s culture. As I wrote in my letter of yesterday, a lacquer plate made me revive unknown ancient times and a vision of the source of life. It seemed to show me the original intention of ancient people who had created a new thing for the first time. By acknowledging the heart of those people in the past, I felt greatly encouraged to create something for coming generations. My ancestor’s achievements always made me happy, while I came to know that many Koguryo people in the past had committed suicide wishing to prove one’s faith. Knowing that I shared the same tendency as they, I realized how influences of past history had been handed over generation after generation until I encountered Mr. Idaki Shin who liberated my life from all burdens coming from the past, as a result of which, I was living an authentic human life, true to my own nature. Not only the life of a person but also a society was drastically changing and anything that used to be considered as valid urgently needed to renovate itself, otherwise it would damage human life. In the past, keeping faith and cherishing one’s life did not correspond, however, as I started to live a new life integrating an idea of faith with living a vigorous life, I was certainly contributing to nursing hearts of people in the past and opening up a future for humankind. Though today’s event was a lecture, I felt total communion with many participants’ hearts and I deeply realized the meaning of my activities. I was grateful to the nature of human hearts for having shared a precious time with many people.