KEIKO KOMA net

13th Sep 2008

Many changes in my life

I will never forget lectures and concerts given by Mr. Idaki Shin in August. I came to understand much more about essential things in my life and especially about my state of consciousness that has been captivated by outer frameworks. When I concentrate on my own internality I shed tears quite naturally out of sincere gratitude to him. On my way back to Tokyo from Osaka, I passed by cities I had visited many times and I recalled our past activities in the Kansai district. I sold out every Idaki Shin Piano concert at Osaka Symphony Hall. I visited Osaka, Kyoto, Kobe and Kyoto to sell tickets by myself. I was hit by the Great Hanshin Awaji earthquake. Our office was half destroyed and was not reparable. But we kept on paying its monthly rent fee for years until we decided to move to another place. Economically speaking it was hard for our company but Mr. Idaki Shin’s wished to encourage our friends and supporters in Kansai by showing them our permanent presence in Kansai. He dedicated himself completely to rebuild Kansai after the disaster and even traveled to USA in search of  an international approach. His heart is still with the people of Kansai. So I realized that I should plan something new. He is always caring about the future of Japan. At today’s Café Akira salon he talked with enthusiasm about the current political situation in Japan. While the general atmosphere all over Japan is full of resignation and apathy, we should grasp reality correctly with a view to finding a bearing for opening up our future society. These days I can feel with my internal organs that human beings are really living in the vast universe, and at the last Idaki Shin concert held in Osaka I acknowledged it also in my brain. All of a sudden, I recalled that he had described Mt. Gojo more dynamically than the universe. His music sounded indeed as marvelous as if I were in Mt. Gojo. The space expressed by him seemed to make me climb up the steep mountain easily. I realized how my consciousness bothered to exercise my potential and inner abilities. At the same time I realized that I have inherited from my ancestors the pattern of life that risks a sudden death. As soon as I start something creative I forget to eat and sleep. So I have decided always to consider the state of my body and cherish my life.