KEIKO KOMA net

31st Aug 2008
 

When sadness is wiped away

The second of the Idaki counseling courses that took place yesterday was heavy, as I received negative influences from participants, but today I woke up in the morning as rigorous as usual. Please allow me to write spontaneously as things come into my mind. Several days ago I eventually recalled a happy visit we made to Taipei in 1998. I bought many sweets made of fruits and sea foods in a shop by the sea. It reminded me of a remote past when people cherished each other, though they might not be materially rich. They rejoiced to share what they had for a day. My heart was warmed by this vision. And several days later a friend of mine in Taipei wrote me a letter with good news. I heard that in the Jomon period in Japan, people could tell through a vision in their dreams who was going to visit them three days later, so they started preparing for their guests. This is the same sensibility as I have. People around me have been telling me that I am strange. My first question when I met Mr. Idaki Shin for the first time was if I was strange or not. He replied to me that I was quite normal and encouraged me greatly to live on. By coincidence the 23rd of August was the same day as I met him for the first time twenty seven years ago. Later I acknowledged that my sensibility was inherited from kings of Koguryo who could understand the will of Heaven. So I should not have suppressed this aspect of my life. Especially after the entrepreneurial seminar given by him this month, I was fully awakened to accept my mission in this world and my special ability. I also learnt that in ancient times Japanese people used to perform ceremonies to purify space in order to welcome divine powers. Naturally I considered his concert hall and my atelier as somewhere sacred and I purified both my mind and body before going there. But nobody around me understands this attitude. I suffered enormously because of other people’s careless behavior. Especially while I was creating my art works, something that bothered me by mistreating my works was identical to a threat to my life. Damage made to sacred expression was a question of life and death. However, I thought that my anger was rooted in the same negative factor as would lead to war, so I endured until Mr. Idaki Shin visited my atelier. He seemed to have purified the space, and at the sight of a big drawing that I had struggled to make as if my internality was in a state of battle, he made a big calligraphy on top of it and wrote ‘Koguryo’. Then marvelously the drawing was turned into a glorious art work. My work and I were saved by him again. After the exhibition I had a chance to see a photo of this art work and I acknowledged that what I expressed in it was a history of wars and conflicts and the calligraphy written as Koguryo by Mr. Idaki Shin put an end to the sad history of humankind. I could not resist shedding tears. When I visit historic sites of the world I often see ruins of sacred places that should have served as the center of numerous people’s spirituality. I feel enormous sadness and understand that only Mr. Idaki Shin can wipe away the sadness of history as he can apply the Idaki Shin piano counseling method to history. I become motivated to organize his concerts to give drastic solutions by changing people’s internality and the atmosphere of their land. Armenia knows genocide and I have received a message there, saying that only a world proceeding to the Big Bang in three stages can reach the final solution. 
I realized that if my most delicate and holy sensitivity will be destroyed, nothing but conflicts will follow. I should not kill this most precious ability of mine that was inherited from my ancestors who knew how to create a country. In this sense also I will dedicate myself completely to open up a future of mankind where each will be able to develop his or her inner potentials and live his or her lives true to human nature. 
I decided to visit Kakurin temple the other day wishing to meet the souls of Koguryo people. But I scarcely had time so I hastened desperately to get there only to stay five minutes. However I could enjoy talking to the souls of my ancestors. It was a happy moment in my life. I took off my shoes and sat on the ground and bowed politely. By visiting old temples and shrines I can feel vividly the souls of people who have made historic achievement in the past and are worshipped as guardian gods. It is my great honor and joy, as messages I receive from them are always marvelous. People alive should come to know how to express ourselves precisely and richly on essential things. Then human relations in the actual world will become really wonderful.