KEIKO KOMA net

23rd July 2008

I am grateful to my life. 

Mr. Idaki Shin commented that when I used the word “unknown” in my letters this was not something I did not know, but what I saw with my internal vision, that had not happened yet. So I should have used another word. I understood from the feeling of uneasiness that I had always to express myself precisely in words. He also pointed out that I had to detect the reason for pains in my body. I envisioned my life within, and I saw that my consciousness had a white color. He said this was connected to what one called a god of Hades that bridges the real world and the world after death. According to him, in some religious sects a highly trained monk attains this state of consciousness to be considered as a living god, and such person prefers to die earlier, out of resignatio,n to realize an ideal world on earth, and pass on his wishes, to be fulfilled later in history. I realized the real cause of the uneasiness in mind and heaviness in body that I have been suffering after the Legends of Koguryo Rediscovered concert in Kyoto. When one awakened to a deeper dimension of life one became closer to death. This is a subject of supreme importance so it may not be a proper way to talk about here, but I can not neglect what has happened in my life. While I envision my life every day, darkness of mind is black, and nothingness is white. I recalled the color of mind at an Idaki Shin concert. It was always transparent and I saw light itself. What we do under the name of Idaki is something completely new in the history of mankind. I am grateful to everything that makes our activities possible.  
Later today I went to the new building that I rented for the Skyrocket team and my atelier. I tried to draw new paintings for the coming Mind-scape exhibition at Roppongi on the 8th and 9th August, but I did not feel like painting. I asked Mr. Idaki Shin to come and help me. As soon as he arrived, I felt much better, and I was very impressed by his behavior and warm consideration to me. He refrained from stepping on a large blue sheet on the floor because I would put my works on it. He was the first person who understood that the blue sheet was part of a canvas. Since childhood, I have been particular about everything, and people considered me too nervous. I had difficulties cooperating with other people at my atelier, because they seemed to be careless, while I always wished to work in a sacred atmosphere. Because the idea of cleanliness and sacredness are on two different levels I refrained from asking other people to understand my desire. And as Mr. Saito showed me, how comfortable, warm and pleasant it is to share the same ideas towards creative activities. I wished to make every presentation space and event hall, not to mention my atelier, full of heavenly light. This allows everybody to work with joy. An ideal space for collaboration