To be true to myself
Yesterday my heart was aching so badly that at night I could not even raise my left hand. In the morning I asked Mr. Idaki Shin to play the piano for me to listen to over the telephone, and I was carried away to a heavenly world. From there I looked down to discover that I was suffering from shadows of my consciousness. They objectified everything, including my body and life born out of nature. I recalled my experience at the screening of Legends of Koguryo Rediscovered concert last night. In the beginning of the part showing Amnokwang River, I found myself within the world inside the video, and I was extremely happy, I was really back at my most cherishing home. However, as my sensation seemed to me so exposed to the world around as if I was naked, I felt scared, thinking how normal people would look at me, and all of a sudden I came back to the world outside the video. I shut down the possibility of a new wonderful sensation for fear of others’ eyes .
Every time I experienced Idaki Shin’s concert I could realize that I could live a dynamic and lively life, and that the lives of people are connected to each other, and I found within my life love and kindness to every body on earth. The life of humankind is unified. This is the reason why Mr. Idaki Shin can not neglect the lives of other people, and he takes other people’s problems as his own. As a way to tackle the problems of others, he started playing the piano 24 years ago. From my experience of last night, I felt again how precious was his concert that has been providing us the opportunity to realize a new consciousness that overcame an old one that had confined the development of my own nature and possibility.
Keiko Koma